In Between Days

i didn't get a wink of sleep last night!
i got to bed at about 2 and it was just tom and i in the house and he'd been tucked in for ages i think so i locked up and read for a bit and at 3 someone called my house phone and i let it ring out and they didn't hang up for the message bank, whoever called just left the phone engaged
then i started freaking the fuck out like holy shit either there's some burglars who know my fam's outta town and are calling to confirm, or there's a murderer in the house trying to get me up so he can slash my throat
so i stayed in a completely still foetal position with my light on with my hands curled around my cellular waiting to dial 000 until the sun was up
i heard so many noises and door handles but when i felt brave enough to check because the sun was now up there was no one there
i think i'm developing mild paranoia or schizophrenia, because i have this constant belief that someone is following me and trying to kill me and that they can always hear my thoughts
it's not healthy i think i need help but i don't know i'm pretty sure there is someone on my tail. on my trail