BUZZY

sneaky catnaps don't do you any favours when night actually comes.

People Who Walk In Straight Lines

On the bus home today i was thinking about professions/things that require you to walk/run in a straight line. i got quite a few
-gardener/lawn mower
-catwalk model
-tightrope walker
-pirate/captive of pirate (walk the plank)
-pole vaulter
-long jumper
-treasure hunter
-30 steps West X marks the spot
-that circular metre thing that you roll on the ground to estimate distance job
-pageant girl
-flight attendant
-people who do regular shopping with tha trolley down tha aisles
-bowling
-cricket
-softball
-baseball
-t-ball
-all those ball sports
-100m sprint
-that playground game where you play tip along the marked lines
-floorboard sander
-old fashioned farmer (plants his crops by hand, in lines)
-train/bus ticket inspector (walks down the aisles)
-silverchair
-compulsive brides
-compulsive grooms
-the aboves flowergirls
-line dancer

ahh i know there were heaps more but they've already escaped the grasps of my mind i really enjoyed thinking about this its a fun topic and i almost missed my stop because of it

I Found Me Some Treasure

MY LUCK IS BACK !

if you weren't aware it was gone, i've just been having great luck basically this whole year, acing stuff without any effort etc. but this luck ended on Friday last week and it has been awful every since and all we've been talking about is when is it going to come back, and if it does it will be signalled by if my favourite contestant ALICE on ANTM makes the final 2. and she did ! omg as soon as it happened my home phone rang because i couldnt watch it at phillys today because i was weighed down with HSC stuff and i answered PHIL because i just knew it would be him and it was and then DK came on the line and we were just chatting and exchanging thoughts AND MY LUCK IS BACK

OH LIFE !

spacespacespacespacePINK

Today was ok, a lot better than yesterday that's for sure. Yesterday i was a depressed emo type, but i was still loved so i didn't fetch the rope and head down to the forest !
I had to run the assembly thing at school, and it was awful ! my voice was normal though i think and wasn't high pitched and small like when im really nervous. but all was not smooth, as i went to sit down on my seat after i made an announcement i didnt sit in my seat i sat in the gap and almost fell ! woops, but i didn't let myself get to embarrassed. also, afterwards phil was like 'i saw your undies, they were pink' and quite a few people admitted they had too and woops again but i also didn't let myself get too embarrassed, they were respectable undies.
umm. tom gets back tomorrow, i miss him heapsss.
today in photography everyone was letting out the inner hideousness and doing these powerful horse laughs from deep in the throat, particularly phil, dk and mo-yo. i was disgusted, but did a quick one under peer pressure and i did feel kind of better although too much would definitely hurt the throat

i made a couple of purchases off eBay the other night which i really like, i'm getting into 'space' clothes like metallic silver and high collars and stuff. i kind of want a fitted space suit but i dont think that would be accepted



&



i like them. maybe i'll wear them with a helmet
oh life !

YEAH WHATEVS !

nervey

i'm so nervous
shaking with nerves
bouncing off the wallsssSSss
i cannot reveal why though. for the sake of my lioness pride
sleep will not come for a long while yet. i drank three cups of coffee in a row at work. free, tasty

it started as this



soon progressed to this



and v. soon was this



OH SPARE ME THESE NERVEYS :(

100% Australian Owned

I highly recommend these fruit strings to anyone. i just had one and it's like heaven in a moderately priced packet

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

You can give me this
You can give me that
You can give me this
You can give me that
It's not enough

Money's so green
So casually seen
It don't bother me
It's not enough
It's not enough

Every town I go in
Every street I walk down
I can get anything I want
I just lay my cards down

I can count on diamonds
Rubys as well
Oh big deal baby
I still feel like hell

It's not enough
It's not enough
Oh you can take it

Every town I go in
Every street I walk down
I can get anything I want
I just lay my cards down

I can count on diamonds
Rubys as well
Oh big deal baby
I still feel like hell
It's not enough
It's not enough
It's not enough

FOR ONCE JOHNNY, I BEG TO DIFFER !!!! GIVE ME MONEY, GIVE IT TO ME NOW !!!! $$$$$$$$$$$$$$ IT'S ENOUGH I SWEAR

Space Or Somewhere Closer

plans have changed
i'm going to tokyo at the start of next year with phil. hopefully dani will come. europe for 6+ months later in the year
how does this make me feel ? like teaching english and buying watermelon icecreams from vending machines in the street. oh you know it japan

I Got The Moogies, The Dreaded Bloogies

well well well
today i was quite tired. this is because last night after we (DK PHIL RAY aka mwah) had watched antm at philz crib we went to his room to listen to (at first) 'soothing sleep music' which he has power naps too but OMG NO NO NO DK AND PK YOU ARE WRONG it was frantic and jumpy and while they would be thinking 'time to sleep shut those eyes' i would be like 'can't sleep too much to do can't sleep too much to do' it makes me feel FRANTIC. the so called climax of the song relaxed me more but this was quickly followed by CANT SLEEP TOO MUCH TO DO CANT SLEEP TOO MUCH TO DO all over again ! i tell you what's the point !
but after this, DK asked wait what's these songs and it was from a cd Phil's dad had gotten him because he's an avid movie maker and it was entitled something like 'Death and Horror sounds' probz not because my memory is appalling and i really don't thing anyone would be as cruel to name their own product that, and it was like sound effects to add to movies. but yeah, DK and i made him play it and oh mercy my blood ran cold and i was torn between hysterical laughter on the floor and sheer spewworthyness as the computer played us tunes called 'ripping off fingernails' 'pulling out tongue' 'cutting wrists' 'two throats cut at the same time' and 'involuntary regurgitation' . naturally, as the sandman was attempting to sprinkle sand in my german eyes later that night, he was overthrown by my stomachs sadness as it recalled two throats cut at the same time

omg and something i also wanted to get out was there's this guy at work who really bugs me, he's short and stocky and stole every nickname i have for the original DK (because they share the same name) and to get your attention he dances and does little jigs and whooshing noises from the mouth. please, don't bring about the involuntary regurgitation

HAHA and one more thing was this sign beautiful amer found for me which really couldnt be more targetted at my humour and at first made me think oh shit is god reading my blogs, then oh shit is the man that makes gods signs reading my blog hahaa whatevs i love me and god should really realise that his name spelt backwards is dog. as in the family pet that is controlled not in control, and hopefully sleeps in a kennel


AMEN

Time Time Time Changes The Essence

Today an ex-student from like 2 years ago, Helen, came in to our photography sesh to be photographed because wowza !! interesting story here. she went to art school after y12, left after a year because she didn't like the theory and to become a full time ballroom dancer. PLUS giving private lessons and a businessy job on the side. and now she's pursuing the modelling career everyone said she should have. ALSO on the side ! some kind of superwoman i think. so we took photos of her, wearing a mod dress, a space-ish suit and a flowing dress and ooh shivers it was fun, we had the professional lights with umbrellas and backdrop and the whole shbang. we were heaps nervous at first all shotgunning not going first but once we got started we used hundreds of shots and it was fab !
anyway, the helen i remember was always wearing wacky clothes and was just heaps wack (in a good way) and today she showed up and was like hey rachel and i was liike wooooooooooooooooah you're heaps dif like crazy dif all sophisticated with a viccy beckham type haircut and smart clothes. same personality though, pleasing.
we also took some 'everyday' shots just for her portfolio. kind of like this i guess.

meep pysche !
then mickey m. also from 2 years ago gave me + her a lift home so we had ample talking time while waiting for him and we were just talking about life! and school and career choice and heaps sophist. stuff but i thoroughly enjoyed it, although i must say i felt like a little school girl with my legs dangling off the brick wall with my little maryjanes swinging through the air and my navyblue stockings, whilst next to me sat a girl with a v. beckham haircut and red lippy ! ha !

TIME TIME TIME CHANGES THE ESSENCE

p.s.

THE CURE IS PENDING THE DECISION TO COME TO OZTRALIA.
jobe said he was going to keep it from me and buy me a ticket for a surprise
but he told me, knowing how much they also complete my life. he said he'd still buy it. quite frankly i would pay any amount of $$ for this opportunity. if tickets go on sale i will camp for a year (that much notice?) to not miss out. what a caring human !!!







i love you all

OmAgOsH

omgosh. only 35 days until im back in the windy boughs of wellseph NZ. could my life BE any more perfect.



jess, i love you .

CHRISTIANITY CHRISTIANITY CHRISTIANITY CHRISTIANITY CHRISTIANITY CHRISTIANITY CHRISTIANITY CHRISTIANITY

i encountered something quite strange yesterday and i don't really know what to think about it. jobe and i were just walking through that pittst. mall thingo where they have all the street performers, and there was one that was attracting a lot of attention, accompanied by loud music so naturally we went to have a geeze. fuck, it was all these fucking christians in white chanting some god/holy/saviour tune with drums and non-english speak but (strangely enough) that wasn't the weird bit, the weird bit was there was this girl who was like smacking out so hard in front of them (she wasn't dressed in white, she wasn't part of them) looking like she was on so many pills and basically thrashing any life out of the air then next thing (the christian tune had increased in volume and intensity) she was on the ground , faceplanting, now smacking the ground and twitching and shit ?!?! then the god people looked at eachother like this was some sort of normal occurence and helped her up (still twitching with violent jerky movements) then when she was back on her feet she sort of blinked, shook her head, found her boyfriend or male friend, and left.
ummm. i really don't understand this one
jobe said she was probably part of their act, but she was like heaps conservative and she was also asian and i just dont think that was it. definitely not the kind to do pills. another reason why i hate the damn religion. YOU SUCK !!

hahaha earlier on that day, we were just walking through hydepark and this gang of chatcunts were like 'excuse me ladies' and we turned around and he said to jobe 'want to fight and the winner gets your board'
HAHA. gangster chatcunts good thing they took away my appetite because i had no $$ for food anywayz. an Up & Go did the trick

MMMKAY

My night started off on a regretful note, which made me realise how much i loathe regretting stuff and stuff. it was when i was looking for the other black sock to wear with my leopard shoes (which my friends despise but i love) but i couldn't find it and then i realised- a couple of weeks when i went crazy and started chucking all this shit out of my hoarders room, i found a black sock and being the lazy cunt i am instead of putting it in the washing pile i just went 'uhh.. nah i dont need it' and chucked it in the rubbish pile. but then, i realised i always continue finding this easy route out- in this case i just wore some plain plimsoles which didnt require black socks at all and i felt a whole lot better about everything, spesh cause my lep shoes make my feet hurt. hence, i will always keep opting for the easy way out unless tragedy strikes. so there really was no regret in the end
i dressed quite gothic tonight and i loved it. it fits in with the realisation that i hate people staring at me and knowing my identity heaps so i wore a black traincap, black hood, jobes white (eep!) headband which i will never return. black coat dress. black tights. black black black like the night. and right now im wriggling my toes to get some bloodflow going to that shit because i feel like theyre going to drop off from coldness. i think i have bad blood flow to the extremities.
so we hanged (hung? i dont like using that term because it makes me think in referral to 'how well is he hung' which is obviously a disgusting phrase which shouldnt be cast upon anyone. but now its in the forefront of my mind) at DKs. it was really fun, we got heaps hungry at maybe 10 so we went to forrie shops and saw so many freaking people?! i guess it's the new kink. bahaha jokes. lots of ppl were staring at us so i guess its good i was like the night sky. ordered pizza, g. bread and d. coke. mmm. when we were waiting the y11 boys rocked up hahaha omg i never realised how funny mikey darcy is the alcohol had obviiously been flowing but he was saying shit like 'hoome doctor' heaps and just being hilare. and they kept calling me michael jackson because of my white gloves. so we chilled with them for a while whilst our pizza was being baked. went back where select y11s plus 10s joined us. hahahaa i was michael jackson and steve was shark boy because he had a hood that zipped over your face and turned into a shark omg i want it so bad !!! at the end of the night i was ready to walk home but DK / everyone seems so shocked at the concept of forrie to c. cove walk and i honestly don't understand what is so bad. so yeah me and phil had set off i had my hood up looking as male as possible and then rowie rocks up like less than 100m down the road. oh DK your concerns are signs of a true friend. haha i just remembered what i said when she said 'are you being serious that you're walking?' i said 'yes ! i'm a loner i like being by myself'. sooo yeah im home, should really get to bed because im seeing jobe way too early for my liking tomorrow, but im waiting for my electric blanket to heat tha fuck up
mmmmkay.

Claustrophobia Doesn't Keep Me Away From Corners

i always do weird things at the kawa household
not on purpose though
like the other day i was just sitting on a stool in their kitchen then everyone disappeared for a prive convo and all of a sudden i felt really lonely and exposed so i went to DKs room and squashed myself in the corner and just sat there for a while. then gary opened the door looking for mumkawa but didnt see her and was just leaving when he caught sight of me just staring with big eyes in the corner and he screamed and then i screamed and he said i scared him. then DK came and found me.
or the time when i kept dropping glass bottles on their floor within a space of about half an hour and i was perfectly sober. and as soon as one had been cleaned up id drop another one and then another one.
i guess they think im weird
but i guess i kinda am ?

Lovelyness

couple dressups !!



could you think of anything more lovely

I GOT BRASS KNUCKLES HANGING FROM MA NECK AND MA CHAIN

awwww i'm so full of yawns right now i had sooch a long day. i was planning to do a big chunk of my major work at d harbour. we ( me + DK ) decided to go to english first period then leave. worthwhile i guess, quite productive in that sense. then i was waiting outside for school for agessssssssssSsss while DK trekked back to hers to get the car and pick me up. picked holly up. went to phils where it was just harry there and he seemed really nervous when i knocked at the door to pick up a video cam and camera. it was quite a nervous convo really, not sure why. so yeah went back to mine, i went to transfer material (320m !) from my car to DKs, car overheated, had some poppyseed rolls and we were off. sat at bondi beach for oporto of course and oh noooo we've realised that by consuming vast amounts of oporto every week our cravings for it have goneskies. so we are going to try something new until it comes back. went to d harbour, missioned carrying all this material only to be asked to leave within about 5 min. whatevs we're coming back though. security was heapz nice to us saying of course theyd let us and theyd arrange buggys to carry all our stuff so we wouldnt have to and stuff and maybe they were just interested in the female body we decided because maybe if we were boys or such this wouldnt have happened. i dont really know but holly shure does have a nice rack
uhh im tired
fuck and then it was $14 for like a few seconds in that bloody carpark. hatecha face
gawd holly had to be home so dropped her. oh wait i got ahead of myself first we went back to MY place dropping off equip, tom was there which made me happy, i realised i had dirt all over my face so cleaned that mistake up
we called harry to say don't pick phil up from workplacement we will !!!!!! so went to DY. DK found some bargain yet slammin jeans for 20 $$$ at a shop on DY beach, shop guy was quite cute which made me happy but of course he was v surfer. hmm
got some gelato, the place was so loud ! like a million wogs yelling to be heard, full of thick accents and an aromatic air. then omg we got up and DK said 'there he is' and across the road was this heavenly creature all clean shaven which wasnt heavenly because it makes him look scary, but my smile filled my face and i couldnt help jumping all over him like some stupid loud girl. 2 days is a long time for us. im actually way too lazy to type anymore. we went stalking last night. we went everywhere last night. i think i need to stay in more and go to school more so i dont give this overwhelming tiredness a chance again for a while
maybe it's because i'm semi in love
release your inner pussycat doll. maybe with jess
eh typings way too hard

YOUR FACE HURTS ME

omg today me and amer went to get pizza during lunch because we were so hungry and malnourished and we planned our trip really bad and ended up missing english but so what the point of the story is that after our pizza we had brownies and they advertise normal sized brownies and they gave us the box that suggested normal sized brownies but then i opened the box and it was one long, skinny brownie cut into 5 bite size pieces. DOMINOS YOU SUCK !!! you even gave us caramel dipping sauce which dripped all over amers new shoes
props for the pizza however your face now hurts me

Dappled Cities Fly

I feel like there is a whirlwind of jumbled debris of the past few days zipping through my head and i really just need to put it down and sort it out into some sort of order, not just to give me some rest but i'm sure these thoughts would appreciate it too because i'm not sure i'd appreciate cloudyness of the mind either

So, er.. firstly, i remember about a week ago i got a mango smoothie from Gjs and i was shocked at how un-smoothie like it was, and assumed it was because of hideous germs but actually i ordered one again on maybe friday and it was completely different. i worked out this is because the first guy made me a chiller not a smoothie, and i was basically speaking complete untruths saying wow i enjoy this smoothie when really, it wasn't a smoothie at all, so i think i feel a bit cheated as a customer.
Secondly, i have no braces. Its strange, very slimy and i feel like i have way too much lip, but apparently this is normal. I think i'm holding on to my old ways because i refuse to bite an apple yet, because my teeth feel so flimsy and susceptible to snappage.
Thirdly, I have all my friends and couldn't be happier. It came at a good time as well seeing as i have some 'pearly gates' (Phil's term) to convey the happiness.
Fourthly, do people think me and phil are a couple? elena's 'phil.. do you like rachel?' , our excessive time spent together and comfortableness and pouncyness. haha the other day i think it was monday when me dk phil and kate* were sitting on standard grassy bondi slope i think he was giving me a hand massage because i insist and a hilare tribal looking man walks past and shouts at the top of his lungs 'luckiest man in the whole world, you're the luckiest man on the whole damn planet' haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa everyone in the vicinity was lykk totally larfing i actually felt quite uncomfortable spesh cause there was a boy im in love with v. nearby. oh he's amazing (i think?) his name is josh (i think?) ba whatevs. so yes definitely this is a funny situation
this reminds me of all the funny situations involving this gang and bondi. ie on saturday DK was quite an erratic driver taking early turnoffs and generally being quite flustered with martha, like the car stopping on the main road and she panics and tries to turn it on but its already on and everyones staring and shes screaming and im laughing and it's just brill. oh and on monday we were waiting at some lights then we see a suss character with a window cleaner and water bottle approaching with purpose in his eyes and realising his intentions we were like oh no but he was already scrubbing the window but we didnt want to pay $$$ so we drove after he'd done his work and he was scowling

are things any clearer? i don't really think so it just got a lot worse because mum just started talking about my HSC and its really just like please leave me alone
xxxthree kisses

*friend from DKs side

But It's Much Too Late To Get Away Or Turn On The Light

a change of heart? friday has passed but i would say i am definitely a lot more content than friday. love? why aren't boys like they used to be. "all about the music" but you're thrashing a scummy electro scene while dumping a pinga all sweaty and things id much prefer a big rocking horse and a bonnet, a glam basement. i would rather dress up to the eyes be as sleek as a shriek. but where's friday now? a new young pony club set, oversized singz & vacant attitude. hmm something to think about. friday's been eaten by the spiderman

Oh Moses, You Could Never Have What We Have

Sing Us A Song, Cher

Life's v. strange at the moment
everything is weird about having a bestfriend and then suddenly not having a bestfriend with little to no warning and it just smacks you in the face because you handled a situation badly. And by you i mean me, the tense is a little confusing.
when i realised i was doing the wrong thing by just ignoring and i planned to talk, it was too late because she said why should she just talk to me when im ready and feel like it whereas id been ignoring her so why should she. fuckkkkkkk i wish i could turn back time just like cher and undo all this nonsense. i was going to try the talk thing again today but there was such a sense of finality in her character that kind of hinted that i think the friendship is over. lame ! my fault ! i kind of wish i was just full or rage instead of hurt at the start so i just did some shouting and everything was sorted but instead im writing about lameness in a stupid lame blog avoiding the fact that life! will be heaps dif now
oh cher.