Saturday, December 8, 2007

Neverland

Tonight on the train home when we passed milsons point and Jesse exclaimed "woah Luna Park still exists!" Phil said "Rachel, doesn't it feel like you have been seventeen forever."

I thought about it and let it run through my mind and my answer was, "Yeah"

I have been seventeen for so long and then i think nah but then i think yeah remember when you were sixteen and it's all like no actually, i was a totally different person then and that was a lifetime ago so what's going on, how come life is speeding by but i've been a pre-adult for so long. Maybe life is finally throwing me a bone and spoon feeding my obsession with Neverland and youth.

Getting drunk at Luna Park seems such a funny thing to do yet when i turned 17 we had fun, but Jobe was still on pills and we were rapping and Dani and I tried to make our mouths hit the sides of our cheeks and everything was so different but that was only like, 9 months ago.

I can't really figure out what i'm trying to make sense of here, maybe just that being seventeen has been more like 9 years squashed into one (both in the physical sense and shaping of personality)

It just seems like i'll be trapped (or enclosed in a haven?) at this age forever because even when i leave i'll still be seventeen, so really, what's going on here? logic is stupid and you should turn the age successing your current one based on how you feel as a human being, but that would be crap because then i would be like one hundred years old. no no no i am youthful i am youthful

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