MMMKAY

My night started off on a regretful note, which made me realise how much i loathe regretting stuff and stuff. it was when i was looking for the other black sock to wear with my leopard shoes (which my friends despise but i love) but i couldn't find it and then i realised- a couple of weeks when i went crazy and started chucking all this shit out of my hoarders room, i found a black sock and being the lazy cunt i am instead of putting it in the washing pile i just went 'uhh.. nah i dont need it' and chucked it in the rubbish pile. but then, i realised i always continue finding this easy route out- in this case i just wore some plain plimsoles which didnt require black socks at all and i felt a whole lot better about everything, spesh cause my lep shoes make my feet hurt. hence, i will always keep opting for the easy way out unless tragedy strikes. so there really was no regret in the end
i dressed quite gothic tonight and i loved it. it fits in with the realisation that i hate people staring at me and knowing my identity heaps so i wore a black traincap, black hood, jobes white (eep!) headband which i will never return. black coat dress. black tights. black black black like the night. and right now im wriggling my toes to get some bloodflow going to that shit because i feel like theyre going to drop off from coldness. i think i have bad blood flow to the extremities.
so we hanged (hung? i dont like using that term because it makes me think in referral to 'how well is he hung' which is obviously a disgusting phrase which shouldnt be cast upon anyone. but now its in the forefront of my mind) at DKs. it was really fun, we got heaps hungry at maybe 10 so we went to forrie shops and saw so many freaking people?! i guess it's the new kink. bahaha jokes. lots of ppl were staring at us so i guess its good i was like the night sky. ordered pizza, g. bread and d. coke. mmm. when we were waiting the y11 boys rocked up hahaha omg i never realised how funny mikey darcy is the alcohol had obviiously been flowing but he was saying shit like 'hoome doctor' heaps and just being hilare. and they kept calling me michael jackson because of my white gloves. so we chilled with them for a while whilst our pizza was being baked. went back where select y11s plus 10s joined us. hahahaa i was michael jackson and steve was shark boy because he had a hood that zipped over your face and turned into a shark omg i want it so bad !!! at the end of the night i was ready to walk home but DK / everyone seems so shocked at the concept of forrie to c. cove walk and i honestly don't understand what is so bad. so yeah me and phil had set off i had my hood up looking as male as possible and then rowie rocks up like less than 100m down the road. oh DK your concerns are signs of a true friend. haha i just remembered what i said when she said 'are you being serious that you're walking?' i said 'yes ! i'm a loner i like being by myself'. sooo yeah im home, should really get to bed because im seeing jobe way too early for my liking tomorrow, but im waiting for my electric blanket to heat tha fuck up
mmmmkay.